I half wrote an update at four and five months to share but never could seem to hit publish. Lately, I feel like that has been our story over here. Life is full on busy and active with our new six-month-old, and I find myself wishing I had a little more time to do everything but also wishing it would just stand still. Motherhood is strange like that. Please go to bed, but wait I miss you while you are sleeping. I know it won’t get any easier either.
I was waiting for the six-month mark ever since one of my girlfriends brought her baby over at that age, and it looked so much easier. Head is steady, smiling, and laughing while hugging your neck. It is like all of the things you have been dreaming about suddenly start happening and your once newborn is now an infant. Out of the blue Leo rolled over while I was at a hair appointment. Five full months of watching him every single day and I leave for forty-five minutes, and I miss the roll. Ugh. But that is life as a mom.
The transition from the two of us to the three of us has been great. There are days when I stand in the shower and think of how much time I used to have for myself. What was I doing before? I can barely remember now! It isn’t that I long for the old days or wish I could go back because I love that we are a little family, but there are so many things that are hard and harder than I could have ever known.
We are in the middle of sleep training, and I do not want to dive into that in this post as we are only a few days in and it is working, so I will share if and when we master it. As of now, I am in the beginning stages. But I love being able to share things that have helped or share the struggles. Every single mom and every baby is so very different.
And I think that is the chaotic beauty of motherhood. You do whatever it is your instincts, and your gut tells you to do, and you roll with it. We all have these ideas of what kind of mother we want to be. I can tell you I want to be the best I can every day.
Six months comes at you so fast. I feel excellent. My scar looks good, and I feel healed. The surgery and the emotional roller coaster that is having a baby are no joke. I could laugh and cry and then be frustrated all within seconds of one another and be honest sharing my journey open and honestly has also been a wee bit of a stressor. Like hello, world here are my opinions and feelings please judge them!
The thing I hate most about social media is that sadly a lot of people will never know me personally. We will probably never sit down and have coffee and dish our deepest darkest secrets together. And I hate that! I want to hear your stories and compare our mom lives! Please share them below I want to know all of it! But most of all I want to be more vulnerable and share the good and the bad.
Becoming and being a mama is not a comparison game. How one recovers from having a baby, the way you carry a baby, the way you feel or share how you think are all yours. I honestly look different post-baby and just because I may be thin by other standards doesn’t mean I have any less fear or insecurity. I am proud of my body and the fact that I carried a baby. And he was a big baby. It is different. I am different. That is all ok.
I am guilty of the comparison game too. I will scroll past other bloggers who have just had babies and look great postpartum or see that they are back working right away and I think wow that is amazing. I judge myself thinking I have a six-month-old and I can barely get a post up since January, but here we are comparing. It is not a comparison game and however, you choose to handle your journey is up to you!
My word for the year is Trust. I have been feeling something big is on the horizon I do not know what it is, but I prayed in the shower this morning that God would open my heart to receive it. I want to do great things and big things. I have no clue what they are, but my arms are wide open to receive it anytime.
SIX MONTH UPDATE:
In terms of Leo and where he is at right now, we are entering the world of solids. Eating all the things from mashed up banana, avocado, sweet potato, mango. We recently came across a brand I am in love with called Once Upon a Farm. The food is a puree that is already blended and cold-pressed, so it is as close to fresh as possible. And it takes two seconds to open the cap and start feeding baby! They have comparisons on their Instagram showing the colors, and it is fantastic, bright and healthy. I taste each one before I feed them to Leo, and I would eat each of them. So very good and so fresh.
Leo has mastered rolling front to back and back to front. He is picking up everything and anything in sight. We have just started the grabbing anything he can get his little hands on including my food, wine, and coffee! I shared a picture at our lunch the other day of my wine all over the table, and it is happening. Gone are the days of my eat, sleep, poop, repeat newborn.
He loved splashing around in the water in Mexico, and we are eager to get him into baby swim classes. Overall he is one happy baby and laughing all the time. His favorite toys are the dimple, his remote control, and his singing elephant. We love to sing with him, and I strap him into our carrier and blast Justin Timberlake while dancing. His facial expressions are the best. I have to video it and share because it will have you smiling ear to ear!
We have established more of a routine as of late. Or at least what feels like a schedule, I like to be a little flexible with it but it is helping make my life easier. Leo is exclusively breastfeeding. I thought I was going to stop a long time ago but the milk is there and it has just gotten so much more comfortable so I am sticking to it as long as God lets me provide it! I still owe you all my Breastfeeding post, and I will get to it!!
Overall though It is unreal how fast it has all gone by, and I am still scratching my head thinking where did half a year ago. So much more to come in our little world. Thanks for loving on us and supporting us. Every message and comment mean so much to our family and me.
With love, Tamara